Date: March 20, 2017
I’m blessed with a talent I never fought to have. I can memorize things just by working on it once. What is “such a hard algebra problem” to others, is a simple problem for me. Of course, that is assuming I have seen the connections. I see things in numbers. Connections or relationships to the family of alebra. It’s the basis of all math. No one understands and why should they? They can’t see what I see. I’ve tutored for so long (since middle school, if I remember correctly) that all subjects become easy for me. I try hard to show these connections to others. I’m good at explaining things in about 3 different ways. But I am ungrateful. I don’t want it. It is tiresome. Why is that? I used to love to be the smart one. Am I done learning? I’ve learned up to Calculus II, Biochemistry, Physics, Organic Chemistry, Biology, and more. But there is so much more I could learn. So, why have I given up? Such a bothersome conflict I must go through. I don’t have an answer right now but I’m sure I will eventually. Knowledge is power. Then power must be knowledge, correct? I sigh. In conclusion, my current conflict: I’ve learned so much but why do I wish to stop? There must be others this way. Isn’t there?